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On Elms

So what is mental illness?
When you suddenly discover the dual identity disorder is real and delve into a 20 page rant from a manic..or watch This Is It about Michael Jackson..and realise maybe people are just born a certain way.

Ok.Maybe not straight from the womb..but not far off.

Actually ,Who isn’t mad?…probably a wierdo

To be in an industry where you constantly need to reinvent yourself.”Here today,gone later today” is a phrase I heard the other day.
Now thats not a recipe for bipolar disorder is it?

Music and movies is something for the older generation anyway…the kids dont even know what we’re talking about anymore…other than the fact that we look as bewildered by present reality as our parents did by rave music.

But its so normal now that the concept of conservatism has been cornered into an extremely dubious backwater of Brexitville,something almost elevated to the mystical heights of eccentric nostalgia.

Now the madness is plain to see everywhere.You can look at footage of Michael Jackson and see the innocence of that age about TV and fame.
With social media the quest fro originality has become an end to itself.The desperation to stand out in order to mean something.

So there you go..why not the latest -ism in town…Islamosadomasochisticism—or something

Something to feed that voice –and the beard

So maybe originality is overrated?Certainly the uber cool element of it has only taken off since it became something that pays…and with that it has brought about its own demise as fast as its own rise….The post world war disinhibition has been short lasting cuz theres only so far you can go with reality until reality starts parodying itself.Money has a habit of bringing the end of something.

So you have self declared heroes on Youtube responding to that desperate need to eek something out of their lives because to be no one is now so much worse than death itself

Never before have so many people sought so desperately for immortality and had so many ways of getting it

Halls of Mirrors

Bloody hell.
Maybe it is a peoples revolution after all.
But it needed outsiders to spearhead it.

So gonna stick my neck out and say that Theresa May is probably about as outside as you can get while still having a chance thru Westminster channels of power.

For all the open criticisms of politicians for style over substance – along comes ” no nonsense” May (a label already tilted against her and reflecting the views of those doing the reporting i.e. the self serving political media class) and suddenly journalists are cogitating over her different “style” of leadership and the number of times I hear “no (bloody) nonsense” its as if they are hell bent on pouring cement onto this image before it has even fully formed – such is the obsession in media over speculation and its inevitable push into fact thru sheer overwhelming power of repetition.

Her diabetes is testament to the fact that she will not suffer fools gladly.She has not got time for idle frivolities and for some media luvvies who are actually surprised that she won given her lack of mates…well that may be the case but that,I daresay,could be the Tories’…and even Westministers saving grace – that it is precisely being outside the “club” that gives her a chance with the wider electorate.

Because- a set of politicians still dont seem to have fully understood-it is precisely the self perpetuating Westminster club mentality of propping each other up (or at least the perception of it) that is responsible for peoples appetite to cut their own noses to spite their face and stick two fingers at anything that resembles privileged power.

And putting Theresa May in power might be the closest Westminster can get to trying to acknowledge an “outsider” who is credible .

And Leadsom did seem prone to a few gaffes – and we’ve already had enough of those from the Brexit side anyway.

Anyone who shouts about needing to feel good about ourselves again …sounds to me like they are following orders from career marketing advisors – this increasingly shallow soundbiting reflex that gives away the newcomers.

You have to be old (or experienced) before you stop giving a shit about what everyone is telling you to say (thanks to Kenneth Clarke for suspiciously convenient slip up by Sky of off the cuff comments about Tory hopefuls’ competencies)

So if there were ever a time for a quiet outsider to silently shatter the glass facade from the inside – my money is on her.

Revolution eh?

Rock on Nats…

Self fulfilling anomaly

Few years ago Boris was a  Churchill imitating mock parody that managed to shine in the face of Ken Livingstone’s dour and parched Socialism.

Populism proved the winner and now having moved on ,he proves the rule that such creatures are immune from any prolonged condemnation.

Like the one who can get away with the cheekiest comment because by definition they have a manner that makes you think they dont mean it badly…but what it might also mean is that such characters dont really mean anything they say.

Thats why they get away with it surely?

hone it comes to elections though some bizarre central limit theorem of conglomerated consensus seems to back the “safe” guy…or the safe option?

So really we are just like the very big businesses and corporate banks that support the Remain status quo.

“Vote leave” is not the herald of a revolution if its conclusion does not change the leaders whether they be in Westminster of further away.

What it does do is leave a populist memory for the aftermath of when the Remain camp win proving after all the hype,the people are given the choice,they will choose the familiar.

We are already in the EU after all.

And there is something suspicious going on when the Vote Leave is comprised in large part of middle aged opinionated (and slightly self assured) men who have too much time to bang on about sovereignty,  and immigration.

When the mascot is a chameleon who you can see will do well either way, so how can it not be calculated position, when an ex Broadsheet editor famous for punchy headlines,comes out with soundbite after soundbite, having left the office of London Mayor with very little actual sense of revolution.

No,he is precisely the stereotype of Churchill, a mascot British Bulldog who will fight another day because he stuck up for Britain against the establishment, so who better to represent the values of the British than the guy who fought hardest to keep Britain with its own terms?…will be the PR line…obviously.

So it is a win win of Boris and he really doesn’t have much to lose as he doesn’t know failure even when it hits him.

Because failure in politics is of course a self fulfilling prophecy determined only by the politicians own hunger.

Actually getting things done or not done has got nothing to do with it.

Its a hierarchical system of which all politicians are part that maintains its own survival and people  just turn the cogs of different forces on the planet.

Forces that are barely tangible yet drivers of change on scales bigger than human lifespans.

The planet is a chinese doll with different forms of life and we just inhabit one physical layer between the more deterministic and primitive and the ephemeral life of “ideas” like Oligarchy  and Social Justice,Anarchy and Despotic.

Tv pundits argue for their own sake of existence.

The public insist they need more facts.

The papers maintain the story

The politicians appease and then obfuscate and discombobulate because that is the mandate that the electorate understand.

Its really a mess and the older you get the more you might feel exhausted by the chaos and enlightened by the knowledge too of how remarkable it is that we create any illusion of stability at all when the drivers seem to be through appeasement to mass consumerism and fundamentally the realisation that someone made not too long ago that the peoples yearning for stability is so strong that they will happily exchange a piece of paper with a number on it as fair representation of the worth of something

Fundamentally the sheer weight of people carries an unknowing consensus almost God like and greater than the sum of its individual parts but I often find that when I am torn and divided over an issue then this is often reflected in  a finely balanced ballot because if there is to be any truth at all then it should come from as many as possible of we who create such concepts as “truth” in the first place.

So truth ,like most human constructs designed to be approximations to some Platonic thing, is a self fulfilling anomaly that will be arrived on no clearer a manner than the same tortuous back and forth that happens in a single conscious mind.

And even on the largest scales, as a matter of proportion ,the determinant of referendum will be the weight given to the familiarity of Remain ,which will be enough to swing it but close enough to serve as reminder that this simply will not go away within one lifetime.

Because the idea of nationality is strong,and while it will ultimately be irrelevant we are just not built to look further than a few generations for the impact of such fleeing phenomena as “borders” and “countries”.



The New Normal

The world has reached a new normal when you find yourself being surprised by your own nostalgia.

When 20th century intolerance seems a ridiculously simple walk in the park compared to the self made entrepreneurial terrorists of today
Where left field hipsters and Archbishops alike show their progressiveness by out bearding the seditionists
When Iran is hailed as the way forward for international relations between East and West
Where Europe is the squeezed middle in Syria between a despotic and dysfunctionally megalomaniacal Russia and an Arab funded ISIS that is so self assured about its own twisted sanctity
When the only resistance that the real victims can express is by resisting the pressure to take sides.

The only relevance Europe can ever achieve is through how it chooses to handle the refugee crisis.

If Europe isn’t a place people actually want to come to how does it actually expect to survive?

In the New Normal numbers count more than ever

If Europe cant show that Enlightenment values actually mean something that should be able to transcend cultural and historical differences because it is about the common human spirit,then it has nothing to offer to the world at all and it becomes a dogma like any other whose time and relevance is truly numbered because unless you can export something you will cease to matter.

The refugee crisis could be a cultural victory that Europe could harness and galvanise but it may need the shedding of more prejudices and hypocrisy than it can realistically accept.

Weird times – this new normal



The shudder
The weightlessness
The fall
As outside world slips away
And you are left with the only world that truly exists
Inside yourself
The loss of inhibition
And the disconnect at the medulla
Is it the GABA
Is it glycine
The serotonin
The limbic
The amygdala
The hippocampus
The pre frontal
Is it acerylcholine
Is it dopamine
Is it gates opening
Or closing?
That myoclonic farewell to control
To proprioception
That combination lock
That melatonin and cortisol tussle over
In our lipid laden spongy creases
Furiously working away without any distraction from the sedative of interaction and sounds and sights.
A brain whose raison d’être is to find patterns and connections from randomness and meaning from the intangible.
Why some more than others.
What about those who lie in emptiness
Whose other worlds are completely hidden even from themselves?
And those who remember every detail from birth?
What about the good dreams and those who feel fresh in the morning?
Is it a self fulfilling prophecy for everything to make sense?

you know the score
You know the score!